Sometimes there is a light

I wish there were words to describe my oldest son. There aren't, at least not in a short blog post. I would have to describe each year of his life and it would turn into a novel, chronicling the ups and downs, the 2 steps forward and 3 steps back, and so on....

He is a great kid, with amazing potential... I see it. Someday I hope others [esp. himself] can see it too!

You just never know what Logan is going to walk into the room... I feel like I have fought for him my whole life, oftentimes to the point of physical and emotional exhaustion. But I am his mother, and I won't give up. God hears from me a lot! He has a plan for Logan, I just keep praying He won't give up on him either!!!

Here is a VERY rare picture! It is a treasure to me!



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Here is just a cute pic of Logan, John, and my brother from Thanksgiving. :)

news

Hi All,

I received an email from our facilitator this morning. Our dossier is
registered with the MOJ. They are reviewing it at the first meeting of the
adoption commitee which is next Friday. If all our documents are in order,
which they should be!, then we will receive the referral then!

Please pray that happens! With the holidays approaching... there could be
delays ....

**** I am considering "fasting" from the computer until then, except for email. So if you don't hear from me, that is what I am doing. Thnaks. :)

consuming...

I have been waiting for some inspirational words to share. I have thought over many topics I could touch on. There are many needs in this world that can get me really fired up and going.

But the truth is I can't concentrate on them long enough to write anything worth anyones time in reading! My mind is consumed with meeting my girls! I love my life. I love my husband. I love my children. But I want to be in Bulgaria now, holding my babies! [though I guess 6 years old isn't much of a baby! :+)]

I am trying to still be a good wife and mother, but I am not real motivated to do anything. I know this will pass... but boy is it hard! Here I am waiting for something wonderful.

What must it be like to wait for something horrible? My heart is really with those parents tonight, waiting for an outcome that isn't good. By the grace of God, I have not been that parent yet. We have had minor to bad... but nothing terrible! Since I am apparently so bad at waiting for the GOOD, I pray I never have to find out how very bad I am waiting for the terrible!

So thankful today!

I received news today that our dossier has been authenticated, and will be registered with the MOJ tomorrow/Friday!!! The next step then is the official referral of the girls... then we can travel!!!! Not sure how long getting the referral will take... but things are moving! Praise God! What a thing to be thankful for today!

bathtime for Luke and friends....

We have a lovely 1 year old male bichon / poodle mix. He is a pain, but also a riot. He loves the kids, and loves water!

Take a peak into one of Lukes favorite activities:

T H A N K S G I V I N G

I am thankful for:

T ... time with family and friends

H ... heroes that are fighting to keep us safe and free, missing their families this holiday season

A ... agriculture, it's not only how we make a living, but we are a part of feeding the worlds hungry

N ... nachos, if you know me, you understand my love of this food! :)

K ... KIDS! Oh how I am thankful for my kids!

S ... seasons. I live in an area that has 4 distinct seasons. I love each one.

G ... growth group, we love this group of people.

I ... internet. It has brought me a world of friends and also brought me Yana and Tavi.

V ... victory over the world through my belief adn salvation in Jesus Christ.

I ... innocence. I am thankful that my children all have been fortunate enough to have a time in their life of being innocent of the pain and suffering of this world.

N ... I am thankful that God NEVER lets go of me!

G ... God. Oh how I am so thankful for my heavenly father! To God be the glory forever.

Choices

Identical twin boys grew up in the same house. Their father was an alcoholic. He abused both the young boys and their mother. He had been in and out of jail. He couldn't hold a job. He slept around. He rarely had a kind word for the boys, and when he made promises to them he never followed through.

These young boys grew up. One of the boys grew to be just like his father. He was an alcoholic. He was abusive. He was in and out of jail, and his family which included a wife and children was a mess.

The other son was a happily married man. He had a wife and 3 children. He loved his wife, and told her so regularly. He loved his children and told them so too. He followed through on promises, taking his word very seriously. He had kept a steady job with the same company for 15 years. He was a man that many could and did depend on.

A reporter doing an article on identical twins interviewed both the men. Wondering how identical twins raised in the same family could turn out so different, he asked them both why their lives had turned out the way that they did. They both answered with the exact same words:

"With a father like I had, how could I be anything else?"