Wednesday, September 22, 2010

More Than Anything....

Sometimes it just overwhelms me.


Sometimes it brings me to tears.


Sometimes it causes my heart to hurt so much I think it will break in two.


Sometimes what I want more than anything in the world is to be able to rock this little boy in my arms when he was just a baby. And tell him how much I LOVE him and that everything is going to be okay. I want him to have had an early childhood that is safe, healthy, and consistently loving. But had that happened, he wouldn't be my son. And I would be so lost and sad without him. Talk about confusing emotions for a mamas heart!

2 comments:

  1. I think it's those crazy emotions that carried you onto bringing home more children to love. What a blessing they are to us...& people always say where their blessings..humph, little do they know! :D

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  2. I'm glad I dropped by! I had many posts to get caught up on!
    Yes, I'm imagining mouring the loss of the childhood years is hard. Admittedly, I'm looking forward to experiencing that shortly as it will mean I'll have my girl with me!
    I love how cute they are on their potties!! The piggies are uber cute;) and I love the hawks and Tavi's gigantic steps at the park. (literally)

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