You know, thinking of the journey to the adoption of the girls today it occurred to me how easy it would be to just walk away. Say forget it, go on with my life. No extra paper work, no headaches of what to do when, no questions of money, or an undefinable future, no need to be nice and let the glory of God shine through in every answer or response no matter how nasty the comment, etc. etc....
And then it occurred to me... this adoption journey to the girls is much like my journey to God and His adoption of me as His very own daughter. At any given moment how much easier would it be for God to just say forget it? To just go on with His life? No extra work, no headaches of what I will do when, no questions of how I will blow my money on the wrong things, no undefinable future for me, no need to be nice and let His glory shine upon my face time and time again as I mess up over and over, no need to keep His face before me no matter how nasty of comment I may make, etc. etc....
If I am worth all that, if I am worth fighting for, even after having what has been a pretty posh life... how can I turn my back on the "fight" for my girls! They are just babies that have never had even 1/10th of what I have been blessed to grow up with!
It warms my heart to think of all the ways God has fought for me. Some I have been aware of, others I am sure I will never know of.... And He loves Yana and Shawnee just like that too! He is "fighting for the girls", all I have to so is follow!
So while I see the "easy" road, I will not take it. I won't take it because I love these little angels I have never met except in my heart. I won't take it because Jesus wouldn't take it. I won't take it because I have been blessed with a desire to have a heart like His! I won't take it because He has called me to this, and if He calls me to it, He will see me through it!
I am sitting here with aching arms and an aching heart tonight. I am wanting my girls home and in my arms. I never understood how a mothers arms could ache for the child God has placed in her heart, I still don't understand it. But I know it really happens, that others that have had a child an ocean away understand it. And while it hurts, and makes me sad, I am so glad for it... My Heavenly Father is allowing me to see that I am their mother! And they need to come home.
So to make a long story short: "If God is with me, who can be against me?" :)
Wonderfully put! :)...I'm still amazed when I stop and think of where I was in life & that He found me worthy of Him and His love and forgiveness. Wow and thank you Lord! :) Yes, who can be against us? :)
ReplyDeleteOh my--what a beautiful post! I love the way you have worded it. Stunning! You are so right--the Father has never turned His back on us--why should we ever turn our backs on these little one's who so desperately need us. Unfortunately, I think the church in general has turned her back on the orphan crisis--too many just don't 'get it'.
ReplyDeleteHi I love your blog.One thing I want to talk you about my self..When I was born my Mom left me in the hospital...Later I went to small orphanage,when I was 7 years old I want to older orphanage soo it was very hard to not have a family that always support you and loving you....It was very hard to not know them who they are....I was in the orphanage for 15 years..My mom never want to se me and I never want to see her.. Latter they send you to a teshnical for couple months I thought that I will died in that teshical they were not feed you alot windows were broken...So now I have a family that loves me ......I feel that this is real my mom and dad....So now you think how hard for those children in the orphanage, they not feed enouth, or some body who loves them,One thing I want to talk you God always have plane for you...Thank you for sharing you story.. Joseph.....
ReplyDeleteThank you all so much! I just write what is on my mind, and I love that other people can be touched by it.
ReplyDeleteJoe, you are amazing. I can not imagine the strength it took to make it through and still be so kind, compassionate and trusting in Gods greatness and love! You are a blessing. I feel "blessed" to have met you!
Thank you !!!!!I'm happy to met you and share what God did in my life
ReplyDeleteYou are right... we are often being pointed towards the easy road. It is sad that so many families in process are facing such turmoil instead of support during this process... most of the 'nay-sayers' don't even stop to think about WHOSE message they are allowing to be spoken through them. Thank you for staying the course!
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