"Be strong. We must fight bravely... the Lord will do what He thinks is right."
I had prayed so hard, so faithfully, so fervently: "Lord I need an answer!! Is pursuing international adoption, let alone the adoption of 2 special needs girls right or wrong? What is your will for my life, what do you want me to do? If I get a "green light" from you in a very obvious message I will go! I haven't gotten a "NO", but Lord I am not hearing a "YES" from you either, yet I feel an urge to MOVE!"
Well, I never received my "YES" in a booming voice from God. But over and over in His word I got confirmation of His heart for the orphan, the needy, the suffering. James 1:27, 1 John 3:16-22, James 2:14-17... plus many more.
I have struggled one day with great doubt and the next day I would be so at peace with the decision to pursue the adoption of my girls that I know God had calmed my fears. Lately, more peace than doubt has been in my heart. Praise the Lord!!
So tonight I am reading John Pipers book.. "Don't Waste Your Life" [thank you Keno family blog for bringing the book to my attention :)!] Anyway, I am reading a chapter on risking all for the glory of Jesus and our love for Him. Basically it said that at times we will have no idea of the outcome and God did not specifically say to us "go this way or that way", so we make the choice we feel is in line with Gods Word/teachings and we give the outcome over to Him totally saying with all our heart "May the Lord do what He thinks is right."
Thank you Heavenly Father for giving me these words from Your Word. Thank you for my answer! ... AMEN!
Friends and loved ones, I do NOT have the faintest idea how this is going to work, or what the final outcome will be. I want to bring these girls home with all my heart. And yet I also can faithfully and peacefully, through the Holy Spirit dwelling in me, say that the Lord will do what He thinks is right. And that gives me such a sense of peace. I am willing to risk the unknowns so Gods glory can shine in the completion of these girls as part of my family, or in the heartbreak of having to let them go. I am fully committed to them, but as with all adoptions, esp. international there are MANY unknowns and many risks!
The Lord be praised!