11 MONTHS! Longer than a human pregnancy... Longer than a school year.... Longer than I thought my heart could take
And yet, here I am. Heart intact, and bursting with frustrated joy. Frustrated joy is a joy that is placing all its faith in future happenings. It is just waiting to be completed, but knows that completion will indeed be forthcoming.
By the time the girls are actually home it will have been at least 14-16 months. Long enough that if born premature I could have had 2 babies. And as it turns out... I will be coming home with 2 babies... So while not how I expected things to go, it is what I prayed for.
In the time that it has taken to get to this point, God has allowed us to grow closer to Him. He has let our church become a big part of our life, which is a first for us! He has allowed this adoption to be fully funded our of the generosity and goodness of fellow brothers and sisters in Christ. And I have met many wonderful people who are journeying, like us, through the world of adoption, waiting, faith, and hope!
I can truly say I am so glad it was not what I expected!
*** Now, on that note... I am ready to go! I want to see our little girls! I don't want to wait any longer! :)
WOOO-HOOO! Let's GO!
ReplyDeletePlease pray for us...we had our FBI fingerprints redone and they either didn't make it there, or have yet to be processed, and we need to take a "no record" letter with us when we travel. We have no idea where they are!!
Oh so beautifully written, my friend. His ways are so NOT our ways--times like this make me so glad about that! Other times, well, not so much :)
ReplyDeleteThank you for speaking the words that I am working through as well. We are NOT where we thought we'd be. But the journey..... so transforming. It really isnt about the destination. I focus on that sweet face, wanting to hold those chubby fingers in my own. But the friendships and the blessings "along the way!" Priceless.
ReplyDeleteKelly you will be with your girls soon! Yeah! I love your new blog look! Very nice!
ReplyDeleteblessings, Mary Ellen