Today was an emotional day. I am missing my husband and my kids. I am tired because I don't sleep real well away from home, and I am getting very sad about leaving the girls behind for 4 months [or longer].
We continue to visit Tavi in the morning. This visit was definitely an UP! I know I have said it in every post, but she truly is AMAZING!!! Remember all the strikes against this little girl, and yet... she is flourishing! She walks forward and backwards, very fast or very slow. She walks by herself very confidently feeling her way. She plays and interacts like a perfectly normally raised little girl. Today she amazed us even further. She was singing little songs to me. AND she was speaking the english words we said. VERY CLEAR ENGLISH. Some of what she said was "Where's Slavka? There she is!", "Hi Michele", "Slavkas Mama", "Scoot", "Jingle, jingle" and more. Her caretakers say she repeats everything they say... even telling the kids to be quiet or go to sleep. LOL
We got fantastic videos of her... but that will have to wait till I get home as I can't get how to download them.
Tavi John Mayden
The visit with Yana was a down, though the up part was that I did get to visit this sweet baby girl! And regardless of what else is going on... she will always be a bright light in my life. Yana was very disconnected today. I think she only knew I was there a couple of quick times. She did kiss me, but I think it was more like licking my face to learn about me like she does a toy. You can say eeewww, bt only if you haven't been the parent of child so sweet that she makes your heart beat faster just thinking about her!
She was very edgy today, and showed many institutional behaviors. She twitches, has this very strange lizard tongue thing she does, she makes a throaty/snot clearing noise, and she is OBSESSED with twirling anything she can, her favorite of which is my hoodie strings... first one way than the other.
I also think there is a good possibility that she has effects of FAS on top of the Down syndrome.
She did make some noises today, but calling them vowel or consanant sounds would be a stretch.
All these things together do NOT concern me, I love her so much. But they do break my heart. :( It was all I could do to NOT CRY until I got back to the hotel. I would have felt so bad crying in front of Tonis brother.... he is such a sweetheart and he has spent enough time in the company of the 3 of us he probably would have quit! :) The thought of leaving the girls continues to make me so sad... but the thought of leaving Yana in this state of existing in this silent inner world of hers was almost too much. She needs her mama to bring her home! Please GOD, I am begging, don't let her wait to long!!!!
I am needing some prayers of strength and fortitude! I am needing my sweet husband to hold me.
Here is my other sweetie for you to ooh and ahh over since I know you already did it to Tavie pics! LOL