Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Some days my heart just aches....

I don't know what makes some days harder than others. But there are those days that my heart refuses to be stilled and just aches all day. I wonder what the girls are doing. What did they eat today? Are they warm? Have they been held or talked to? Have they smiled or laughed today? Were they excited about anything?

But mostly, I just sit and wonder how long before I never have to wonder about these things again. Because they will be home... being loved, fed, played with, and held. Someday their world will be radically different than it is right now. At first they will not see the blessing they ahve been given, because they will greatly miss the only "home" they have ever known. But soon the love of a family will help heal their hurts, and life will be better than ever before.

Missing them a lot today. Wishing I could show them the beautiful snowfall!


  1. Oh Kelly, I'm trying to just NOT think about her..I know that sounds awful, but I can't let myself think too much or I'll go insane! Totally understand!

    Praying for His peace for you today.


  2. Oh Kelly, I know this feeling all to well! It seems like FOREVER has gone by & still he's not home :( Lord's willing we'll both have our babies soon. & for sure our families love will heal their loss of what they now think is home. They have no clue what home really is. I can't wait till they do :D ((HUGS to ya sweetie))

  3. cyber hug from someone who knows exactly how you feel!
    In Christ,

  4. Yes, I get it! Some days it hurts to breathe. Our Orphanage is struggling financially because of the US economic woes. Hurts my heart. God continues to be my strength and my shield.

  5. I know, I know, I know. It just hurts, dear friend.

    Right there with you.

    Love and hugs

  6. Get OFF that fence, my dear friend. She is seriously AMAZING :)

  7. I understand how you are feeling. It is so hard to wait when you know they are your daughters- it just doesn't seem right that they are not home.

    You are so right on the adjust they will go through. We are taking them from their only home but soon they grow to love their new home so much more

    Bless you while you wait!

  8. I am definitely feeling your pain Kelly! Now that our dossier is in Bulgaria, I find I have a lot more of those difficult days. I just want to hold my babies in my arms and it is so hard to wait.

    Our dossier has already been in Bulgaria for several weeks, but, with so many families traveling, Toni will not be able to get it translated and authenticated until the beggining of the year. I thought that, with so much to do for the holidays, I would be able to keep my mind off of it, but that has not been the case!

    So. . .know that there are those of us out there who can completely sympathize and if you ever need to talk, I am here for you! Praying that you get a travel date soon!