God is looking for people through whom He can do the impossible. What a pity we plan only the things we can do by ourselves. --- A.W. Tozer
Well, God found me. Here I am. Adopting 2 special needs girls from a foreign country. Adding 2 more to our 7 children. Living dollar by dollar. Making a living in an industry that is at best uncertain and pretty much guarantees that we will stay cash poor. Having a 3 year old that is a handful with no off button. Having a 14 year old that is having a good day if he is only mildly angry. Having a husband who fluctuates between "Sure lets do this" and "Are we [specifically me] out of our minds!?" Having some debt, no savings, and needing a large amount of money to see this adoption through. Having to reconfigure a bedroom situations without much room to speak of or closet space! And not having alot of extended family excitement with our decision.
And you know what the best part is???? I am EXCITED! THRILLED! JAZZED! OVERJOYED! HAPPY! And can not wait to see what God has planned in order for me to bring my daughters home! See, to me, it does seem impossible for me/us to do this! And yet, I have no doubt tonight [though occassionally it catches me :)] that they will come home!
God continues to confirm my decision and my heart about Yana and Shawnee. He has sent me a multitude of friends [my personal multitude of angels!] who I have never even "officially met", who have strengthened me in untold ways with their stories, their faith, their kind words, and their wisdom! Thank you dear friends!
He has let the love I feel for these 2 little girls be birthed in my heart with a passion to see this journey through, and to love them as they are today, tomorrow, and years from now! Oh how I think of them throughout my day. Every time I see something they might like, or something they might need, or get a quiet moment and think I wish I could be holding them now... my heart bursts with love for them. I would not have believed it could be this way... and yet... God knew. God knows. God has plans for me, my husband, my children, my new girls... plans to give us a hope and a future.
Thank you glorious Father! I am Yours! I love You!