My thoughts about my girls in a nutshell...

.....First off, I haven't been real busy this weekend, and my free time seemed to be spent thinking of the length of time it will take my girls to come home, and surfing the computer w/o much purpose. Which, consequently, I think I left a comment on every single blog I follow! Which, consequently, means my house is a disaster zone because with this many people under one roof one just doesn't have the choice to neglect much for long!

.....But my point of this post is this: "I have come to a decision. In looking at the photos of my girls, and thinking of them alone and without a family it occurred to me that they had already been abandoned by the very people that God had entrusted them to.

Now this doesn't make their birth families bad people. It makes them human. And being human, they are subject to the same fallacy of thought that has been with us since the beginning of time. To so many of us here in the US that have had the benefit of knowing that a disability does not make one unworthy, it seems unreal that so many children are abandoned for just that reason. But the fact is, most likely these birth families had NO options... at least none that they had been taught was an option. There are no programs for special needs individuals in this country. There is none, or very, very little governmental aid. And the accepted practice is to abandon ones child to an orphanage, for it is not "right" to value an individual with a disability. My point is, successful examples, education, and workable options ARE A BLESSING that is easily taken for granted. And I have no doubt that while they shoved their feelings to the back burner... the heart of my childrens mothers were breaking in two.

These mothers felt that they had no choice but to abandon the children that God gifted to them. My heart has realized that I have no choice either. I will not abandon the children that God has given as a special gift to my mothers heart! God willing, someday I will be able to let these mothers know that their daughters are loved and thriving. If not, then I pray God grants them a sense of peace about what they felt they had to do.

So, 5 months and counting till I get to hold them in my arms like I am holding them in my heart!

Psalm 5:3

3 In the morning, O LORD, you hear my voice;
in the morning I lay my requests before you
and wait in expectation.

Psalm 36:6-7

6 He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn,
the justice of your cause like the noonday sun.

7 Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him...